Shimmering Impetus

Shimmering Impetus
And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. Anais Nin

25 August 2016

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pink, apricot, floating in the springs
you formed me into this shapeless thing
they dropped me on the way to king's house
you can't put me back together
can't put it back. never come back.
roots from our tree
fingers clawing deep down into my being
teeth embedded in my arm nails deep in my wrist
slip this skin
i'll never win. leave the flesh
lying as cold as she.
as cold as the rain pelting the sweet earth
nights so cold days so long
tucked away
nestled in mother earth's bosom
oh god
i need you to destroy me
eat me alive
god in my hand
devil dripping, love splashed all over my windshield
in a moment or a shadow dancing on torn vinyl
petal of the sweet carnation i dropped to you
oh my ONE
it was a bit of my heart under the dirt.

-larock (undated)

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climbing coursing
you can't hold me under
i fight right up
i don't want to be you
i don't need to own you
i don't even need you
but i want to
tight in just the perfect place
second skin against my own
it's only carnal knowledge but
i have to see for myself
scientific method
i have a theory
that you'd taste like genius personified.

- larock 04/17/10

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pulled out my heart with one look
lashes gilded
golden wings
could not release
what was torn from your grasp
i strangled every last drop
you can't get
blood from a rock
but you got mine.

it was never enough
want want want it all
dreaming isn't something
you do in your sleep
i'm making mine
somnambulant reality
beating in my chest
coursing, pumping
demanding it's virtue
it will be, it will me.
i'm making.

- larock 04/18/10

savior

I'm at your feet
you love me mercilessly
from up on your stage
tangled, tenuous touching
every corner of me
seeped steeped steaming
teeming with wicked venom
you pollute my blood
you suck my soul
your satisfaction is
to be my savior
chapped lips chafe
desperate hands
serving and making
turning and taking
shaking me changing me
but- no no no
I won't let it
my SAVIOR
tell me, how does THAT feel
in quiet domination, I stand and defy you
tell me I can't
I tell you, I will.

- larock 04/18/10

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my muse, my slavior
my demon of desire
fill me to bursting
your essence imbibing
intoxicate, fornicate
black hole collapses in
it's own energy field
of delicious torment
exquisite misery
taste my beauty
cover my body with
the beast inside
ripping up, tearing through
jesus isn't here
you are my god
golden deity, monster of raw
fill me with your darkness
until it pours from my pores

you make my heart cry out
in wordless pleading
just one taste
of your decadence
flesh of a god
yet- with a single word
my cosmos turns
lips are loose
feet are fleet
sealed but then
suddenly opened up wide
no hiding
let it all in
your mouth is my window to your soul
your tongue paints
quickening my heart
the seed that starts the fire
thickening flames lick
and everything comes alive.

-larock 04/18/10



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taste my truth
it's blood
it's breath
it's sweat
it flows
unhindered
juxtapose the "probably not"
kick out vicious wishes
slide off my tongue
my eyes undress
take you in
you fill my head with violent defiance
and you keep on coming.

-larock 04/18/10

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chase me, shake me
take me, make me
bequeath beneath
the thickness of insinuations
situations meet moments
flashes of blindness
come inside
i don't know you and i don't want to
just a lick of salty sin
take this grace and wipe it clean
your excuses swirl in my ears
i just want to smile and tell you
i just need you to press
in deep past my lies
slam them to the wall
throw them to the floor
disseminate the blaze incarnate
unchaste and wasted.

-larock 04/17/10

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Today my heart went blind
blind from the madness of you
stripped out
the black in the hole of my soul
blind from the madness of you
they cry out for blood
but there's none left to give
none left to get from this rock.

-larock 02/10/10

Honey Die

shocked delight
clamor please for it
my dear dear stop me now
i'd know love if it spit
in there beware
at night 20/20 blind
honey honey die

lie, taken in hysterical stride
masticate what's bitten off
secrete what's force fed
wrapped up in what got you off
slit into tiny bits
of pride's pussy pie
honey honey die

dry caked-on china
scrubbed bleeding knuckles
buckle under, line up
spliced belly chuckles
take it like a missionary
piss on cherries cherries
sad belief, goodbye
honey honey die

black blood behind the eyes
honey honey die

-larock 04/16/91